New year

Happy New year to everyone....

I pray that 2010 will be a much better year for the girls and I. 2009 turned out to not be the best, so on to a new one. God has provided and will continue to provide for us.

Please make this New Years eve a safe and happy one for everyone.

Holidays

My second christmas without Mike has proved to be okay. It was hard but I made it through without a lot of depression. Why does life have to be such trials and tribulations? I feel that God has put me through so many hoops, all I am looking for is happiness. I am totally independent but yet I don't want to be completely alone. All I strive for is companionship and friendship.

Why is it we all strive to not be alone. I have such a fear of being alone. Something I am having to work hard on getting past.

Fair

I am deeply in love with David and it does not seem fair that I can not have him....
He seems to keep pushing me away, waisted days and nights and still no time from him to love me. Sucks

Lost love

It hurts to much to remember. To remember the lost days of when I could look across the room and see the one person who loves me the most. Now all I see across the room is emptiness. My heart needs fulfilled, it needs to love and the one person that I love is not here for me. Why?

useless days

Why is it that when we are the most vunerable we feel that the world is against us? I look and look for things and they aren't there. I then feel like are we, as humans, ever going to feel complete? These are just the many questions I think we all wonder about.